what now?

as i've said earlier, my boss is now finally, officially gone. during the past eight months, i've been writing my "thoughts". stuff that i think ought to be done, stuff that ought to be improved, and stuff that ought to be done away with. when i got to the office this morining, i made myself a cup of coffee and lit my first cigarette for the day. as i plopped my sluggish ass at my usual smoking area, i suddenly realized that I AM NOW IN CHARGE. puff.

SHIT. puff

i could see a huge question mark in front of me blinking red blinding lights. below it, i read "what now"

SHIT. SHIT. puff puff puff puff

i told myself "deep breaths, duckie. deep breaths."
inhale. exhale. inhale. exhale.
"focus, duckie." puff puff

SHIT. SHIT. PUNYETA! PUFF PUFF PUFF PUFF PUFF

with my cigarette almost finished, i was able to regain control of myself.
i realized that everything starts with baby steps. heck, rome wasn't built in a day. i would not rush into anything. i would deal with each situation as it comes. one step at a time. i was going to prioritize. i was going to take charge.

I AM IN CHARGE.
PUFF PUFF PUFF PUFF PUFFFFTTTTT....

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the morning went pretty well :)